Rebel without a cause

I just broke all my rules. I gave away the milk for free. Yet I don't feel like shit...not yet at least. I know it was done because of sexual tension, want, needs, primal instincts, whatever. Can sex be right or wrong? The catch, I told myself that the next person I have sex with would be in a relationship with me. They would fuck me cause they cared. In my mind I know I care so I've got like 1/3 of the deal done. Where to go from here ? Activity partner, long term relationship, casual sex partner, short term dating or .... This weird in between thing? It seemed like we rewound the tape to the happy bits for now (temporary).