the end of the beginning

I haven't been on here in a while, mostly cause I've had other things going on. I've been thinking a lot of course about how I feel emotionally, and I feel better than I have been. I detached myself from the situation. I told myself I didn't want to feel like that anymore. I wasn't going to let the power of his words hurt me. The distance has been good, but there are moments that I think about him and everything. When I said I didn't care anymore I was telling the truth, I don't care about something that makes me so unhappy. Maybe it seems as if I said it so that it would invoke fire in you and make you come back. In the past I would've pulled that act, but I said it this time because I really meant it (there was no ulterior motive this time). I guess I just got tired of trying to make something out of nothing. That's what happens when you start out something so fast with out a prior friendship, in the end you have nothing to fall back on. I won't lie, I'm still a bit sad, but I've also become unbelievably detached. I suppose having something new to focus on has helped. And honestly, I am enjoying wanting someone and having the want reciprocated. Plus he's a sweetheart.