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So I had never considered that the reason he is different towards me was because I hurt him. I was not the only one that got hurt, but I selfishly never even considered this other idea. I don't know if I am right in thinking this, but it would make a lot of sense since his change in attitude. Anywho, I realized and remembered that I don't want to be someone's second choice, or their drunken mistake, or something to play with when they get bored. Honestly, despite me being a tad neurotic I am actually quite amazing. Some day there will be a person who appreciates every bit of me, sane and insane parts. And in truth I don't think I am really insane, I just care a lot and worry too much. Love will never be easy for the ones with open hearts.