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I know I have a lot of things on my mind, lots of things to say but yet all I can write is the rambling bull shit.

I guess I am at the point that most people come to, a cross roads with no signs. Lack of signs doesn't mean lack of directions it just means that you have no idea what direction leads where. It's having no map with people telling you to follow your heart then, no, follow your head.

But it's not about direction it's about decisions.

What am I going to do?
What an unbearable question
How I wish I could curl into a ball and sleep for a long while, wake up renewed with no worries and tons of answers.

I don't really think I even have that big of problems that would contain answers maybe I just need to make some life changes.

Is it really easy to make life changes through a to do list, a 1., 2., 3. list. Maybe.

I am going to make one change for sure. cut my hair. I think it will help with many things.

stay tuned for changes, maybe even happiness