Loveless

I just watched the movie The Ugly Truth. Not worth watching, trust me.

Why is being loved by friends and family not enough sometimes? Why do we search for someone to kiss us goodnight, somebody to say 'you have the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen,' someone to wash our hair when we are too drunk to know what's going on, someone to passionately make whoopee with, someone to love? The song lyrics Somebody To Love by the band Queen...

Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief, Lord!
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

So according to the lyrics and most people's views, we need to find somebody to love. My girl friends talk of getting married at 22 years old and having kids at 25. I just don't understand this need. Of course everybody needs love in their life even if it is love from a pet. I am graced with tons and tons of love. So, why do I feel the need to get more love, to find somebody to love. Am I not satisfied with the love I keep? Is it because I don't love myself enough? Maybe this isn't a daunting question to anyone but me because most accept loving a significant other as a part of life. A part of the cycle. Some have the argument of not wanting to be alone in the end. But I suppose that is another story/blog in itself. I just would love to know the answer to why we are sometimes obsessed with love. Love isn't all hearts and rainbows. Love can be destruction, madness, pain. Why put ourselves through the heartbreak? Do we do it so we can experience the moments of bliss. I keep telling myself I don't need someone, not ever, not now. I know it can be beautiful to have someone but also painful. What is love anyways? Is it fighting over a photo taken with a guy friend from 2 years ago? Is love sitting in silence with someone and watching the grass grow. Sometimes I think I have never experienced the moments one shares when they are really in love. I mean truly, really in love. I have experienced moments that I will never forget, I have cared unconditionally for someone, I have thought someone was the guy I wanted to be with forever. What constitutes love? Right now I feel loveless.