a part of me really misses you

though i am not sure you miss me

we struggled to find common ground

instead we got ambiguity

and we were blind to what held us together

clearly we knew what we hated

i just want to go back and start over

because despite me moving on it's hard

to forget that initial feeling of being with you

that want to be with you whenever i had a free moment

i miss that want and joy you brought

in the end it was so final

i became distraught and numb

why did it all just stop

what did i do wrong

why wasn't it enough

why did i go back and forth

i thought for a minute that this one was the last

and the beginning of a journey i never would want to end

but it wasn't

clearly it was something else

and i think sometimes i wish i wouldve never started this thing

then i take it back

i know it is done and that im not worth your very valuable time

but when did you last feel like that

feel that want and love

i guess it doesn't make a damn difference

for you are there and i am here

separate and far away from what was ever there