I was so mad at you, but even more mad at myself. I was a bad friend to you and I don't have a good reason as to why. When you picked her over our friendship I didn't understand. We haven't talked for almost a year besides that one time we played phone tag. I don't agree with what you did, but now I understand. You knew she was your future, that you didn't want to give it up and then I pulled the trigger, blowing up our friendship. I felt heartbroken the day after. I was so incredibly stupid. And maybe I was also mad that I was alone. In the end I understand why you chose her over our friendship. I'll be here for you if things go right or wrong, always. I don't want to ever try to fuck up your happiness again.
Guys with best girl friends can be tricky and a slippery slope when you have a relationship. Ive been the best girl friend, but unfortunately I ruined it. Ultimately you decide whats important. You think it would be an easy choice, of course the best friend, but when your best girl friend is fighting with your future wife, you know who's gonna win.
Looking back on the people I've lost and gained, you were one of the ones who I wish had never left. I believe friendship is as deep and true as love.
I only hope one day you and her can forgive and forget.
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