womanly womaness

Today was full of yelling, arguing, cursing, many decisions, and stupid head boys.

For film class we had to come up with a page and half narrative in script format, choose the best script then write a storyboard for the best script.

My script wasn't the best which was fine. So, we picked someone else's.

My storyboard was the best but we picked someone else's.

I didn't vote for my own because I read that you are never supposed to vote for your own and I didn't want to be the black sheep causing trouble. But, honestly my storyboard was the best. Now regardless of whether it was or wasn't the best doesn't matter... it is all about the execution. When my storyboard wasn't picked I went into the situation with a smiling face, good attitude and open arms. And then all of a sudden I start suggesting stuff once our lights go up and no one is listening, it was like they changed the channel on their radios just to tune me out. Plus during the shoot they mention my cleavage and how it could get us extra points in our project... fucking obnoxious pigs. I knew my tits were hanging out but there was nothing I could do since I was wearing a low cut shirt while having to look for fake contact lenses. The directing was shit. The shots were shit. Execution of it all was shit. I seriously wanted to choke the director with a weasel and pull out all my hair and then shoot out my brains and have them all clean up the mess with only their tongues. Crude, I know.

I was the talent in the script. Since the script had a girl originally and I was the only girl in our group I felt like they eliminated mine first off because they didn't want to have to rework the script or they just didn't want two guys playing the roles. I don't know. All I do know is never in my life have I felt so belittled between these three guys though I know they weren't doing it on purpose. Maybe it was all instinctual like they were trained to be superior over me. I have talked with a friend before about women in the film business and how they can at times can be overlooked because there aren't many of them and it just makes me think... should I have spoken up about my storyboard in the beginning? What should I have done?