I gave myself to him and now all he can do is jump on the next girl who is willing to take him in. It hurts so much to see him wash away all the things we had, so I also decided to wash away mine with self mutilation. He doesn't even give a shit about me or my feelings. All the shit he said is bull shit. One night he called me beautiful, I was so embarrassed because no guy had ever really said it. And he, to my knowledge was innocent so I believed his remark believing every word of it. And now I feel like a girl he just had sex with and nothing more. And everyday in class he ignores me and I can't even look at him because I am so hurt. For once I though I had it all right, like he was perfect for me. He was sweet, caring, good with my family, and he made me feel special. I was so comfortable around him it felt so weird that someone could like me for me. But it was all too good to be true. Ah so cliche but there is truth in it. I really don't believe in myself ever finding love. I know I'm cynical and stuff but I can't help it, I have fucked up so many times that that is all that I seem to accomplish. I am tired of being a hoe, being hurt, and being a failure. I feel hopeless.
The End.
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